It's been awhile. I'm seeing someone new. Well, we started hanging out a few months ago. Hanging out turned into sleep overs with just sleep. A couple of months ago we ended up having sex, and that turned into a fuck buddy situation with feelings, which turned into love. He actually told me that he intended to just date me to help me get over Chris breaking up with me, and then he ended up falling in love. His name is Eddie and he is absolutely amazing.
Also, my grandfather is about a second away from death. Earlier this week, his doctor told him that they have no other treatment options for his leukemia. The doctors have stopped his blood transfusions and his health just went south quickly. Eddie took me down there yesterday to pick up the mattress my grandfather is giving me, and he just looked terrible. He couldn't stay awake, and he's on morphine every two hours, along with Oxycontin. Seeing him like that was the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. I actually wish he would just pass so he doesn't have to live in pain anymore. When the hospice nurse came by she told us that letting him die at home is the most loving thing we can do for him.
We went back down today, and he was a little more lively and was off the oxygen.
This is the first close family member that I will lose. My grandfather has meant the world to me, he helped raise me, and watching him suffer like this is unbearable.
Eddie has been so amazing to me during this time. I've actually been living with him for the past 2 weeks cause I can't handle being at home right now. I fall in love with him more and more each day that I wake up next to him.